saying "goodbye" to the ones you love is never easy. yesterday, jared and I drove to tallhassee to take haley to the airport. her time here went by faster than i would have liked. working so much didn't help much, but when you enter into adulthood, you have to say "so long" to spring and summer breaks.....unfortunately. so while haley enjoyed long sunny days laying out at the beach, i sat behind a desk. i keep saying this, but i wish there was some way stop time and take in every moment for all it's worth. as i watched haley go through security, i thought of the german phrase "alf wiedersehen" which we used to always say to mean "until we meet again." i have always preferred that over saying "goodbye"...because it is just that. only a couple more months until i get to see her and the rest of my family again. next time i see her....i'll be almost 6 months pregnant!
speaking of which...i am now 11 weeks and almost finished with my 1st trimester. to say the least, baby has been a constant thought on the brain...well what little brain i have left! i can't seem to remember anything these day. however, even though i feel like i have said "alf wiedersehen" to my memory, i think we can say "GOODBYE" to morning sickness! the past week as been wonderful! it is almost as if i'm not really pregnant since now i feel great...other than the fact some may think i am eating for 5 these days! I had a couple of events this past weekend and everyone just kept laughing at me because whenever i has in the back, 9 times out of 10 there was something in my mouth. surprisingly, i haven't put on that much weight. i guess we will find out the honest truth on thursday when i go back to the doctor. i'm hoping we will be able to see our baby's little hands and feet!
i came across the most precious website a couple weeks ago. Dimples and
Dandelions. when i saw this picture, my heart melted. the more and more i think about being a mommy and having a little one, the more excited i get. yesterday, jared and i were in target and we decided that we would start buying little things that we know we would need (diapers, wipes, passifiers, etc.) and then once we find out what we're having we can start getting things for either a boy or girl. when we got to the area with all the baby stuff, jared turned right now the asile and began looking at everything. he seemed excited so i told him he could pick out what he wanted to get. we were going to get diapers, but when jared realized how much diapers are and how many a baby goes through in a day, i think it was a bit overwhelming and a lot to take in at once. so we started off easy and picked out passifiers and the little basket that goes in the dishwasher for spoons, bottle tops, and passifiers. i saw passifiers that had little beads and gem stickers on them and i said if it's a girl i'll be back to get those. jared wasn't thrilled by any means. hopefully we will find out what we will be having in 4 more weeks. we have done a couple of the old wives tales and they all point to a little girl. once we find out, i'll let you know if they were right or not!
it is saturday afternoon and here i sit on my couch watching mindless reality tv with little lulu sound asleep on my lap and still in my pajamas. yesterday was a tiring day and when i woke up this morning...the motivation was lacking. i guess i just have a lot on my mind.
if you talk to anyone in the US, they will probably tell you it is a buyers market...but not really a sellers market.
after being on the market for only 8 DAYS, our house is now under contract.
so basically that means we have a couple of weeks to find a house. only problem is, we did not think we were going to sell our house so fast and therefore had not even started looking. after sorting through a lot, jared and i realized we need to wait a week or so before we can make an offer on a house we absolutely love. house hunting can be exciting and incredibly exhausting at the same time. as exciting as selling our house is, it's a little nerve racking knowing that we are pressed for time, that there is a house we love at the right price, but we have to wait for a couple of checks to come in before we can even think about making an offer and by then it may be gone.
God is teaching me patience yet again. funny thing is, i have an unusual sense of peace knowing that there really isn't anything i can do, but that everything will work out according to him plan. just knowing that God is in control gives me an enormous sense of peace in and of itself.
growing up can be fun at times, but it isn't as fun and carefree as i always imagined it would be.
in knowing that, i am off to my grandmothers for one of her yummy home cooked meals with jared and haley and baby berry! grandmothers are such a beautiful blessing :)
so pregnancy has been quite an interesting experience so far. every morning on my way into the office, i am asked the question of the day, "so how are you feeling today." Some days are better than others, but who ever coined the term morning sickness, either has no sense of time or was very blessed because it's not just a morning things.....it's an ALL DAY feeling. Not only do I feel like I'm going to get sick 90% of the day, but I'm exhausted! a girlfriend of mine today mentioned, "every time i see you, you look worse..like you don't feel well and your tired." DING DING DING! i think it's written all over my face. Sometimes, i just want to turn my office lights off and crawl under my desk. but no telling if i would actually wake up! i am at that point now though, that I'm ready for the full blown baby bump...."bump" mind you, not the 9 month mountain. Right now, my pants are just getting tight around the waist and i look like i've gained 10 pounds...even though i've only put on 5. Oh and I eat all the time!! That is the only thing that seems to help my nausea and not to mention i crave food all day long! No specific craving yet. jared used to say that maybe i would actually eat normal things when i was pregnant since i ate all the "pregnancy foods" then. and believe it or not, i have only have 2 pickles since i have been pregnant! so let's see, what other things have i been feeling....
aside from being an emotional, hungry, fire breathing, bloated little lady, i couldn't be more happy! being pregnant hasn't really sunk in just yet, mostly because i don't see or feel any huge results other than filling icky. our little bean sprout has now grown into a little raspberry (notice how everything revolves around food!) and is about to turn into my favorite...a little green olive (9 weeks). once i feel the baby moving, see the growing results in my belly and start buying baby stuff, i think reality will finally sink in...and i can't wait! 
I'm completely baffled at the thought that March is already here! Where has 2008 gone?! I feel like I'm running as fast as I can but can't keep up with time....kinda like the way my mouth can't keep up with my brain!
