A life of passion and freedom

So here I am yet again at another bridal show...this time: Dallas, Texas. After waking up 30 minutes late, almost missing my flight by 2.5 minutes, getting harassed by TSA airport security, a broken zipper on my briefcase, spilling water and having to sit in wet jeans for an hour (and looking like I had wet my pants), 3 long flights, a dead cell phone without a charger, no GPS, getting lost in a city I have never been to and having to actually follow a taxi cab, having to actually pay for my hotel instead of it being free like my reservation was for and then them not accepting my credit card....lets just say yesterday was a never ending day that almost ended in my 4th consecutive day of mental breakdowns. If it wasn't for a long hot bath, Starbucks Calm Tazo Tea and the comfort of a Marriott Bed, I seriously might not have survived!

Even amidst the utter chaos yesterday, I found myself still sane while listening to John Mayer's new song Say on my ipod and thinking about the movie Jared and I went to see last night, P.S I Love You.

Talk about a tear jerker of a movie! This week has been one big emotional roller coaster so maybe that is what contributed to the flooding of tears while sitting in the theater. Who knows... but it really was a great movie...Jared said he even liked it!
Throughout the movie, there were many touching and tender moments...many that even made me wonder if I was watching mine and Jared's life reel across the screen. However, there was one quote in particular that really resonated with me towards the end.

You were born to create.

For those of you who know me, know that I am a thinker. My mind is constantly on the go. Whether it be thinking about what the next day entails or dreaming of what others might deem the impossible, my mind runs is severe overtime. Lately, I have been mapping out my future and when I heard this quote, it hit home for me. I was born to be a dream chaser. I don't want to look back on my life only to say "I wish I had...". I was born to create. Born to live a life of passion. Born to create and design, to create memories, to create life.

Sitting on the plane yesterday, I listened to the new John Mayer song Say, over and over again (I tend to do that often when I find a song I love). I always am amazed at how John can take such an ordinary, common, and every day concept and make it sound so profound. Say what you need to say is such a simple phrase, and yet very reflective. How many of us walk away only wishing we had said how we really felt? On the inside it's as if we are screaming the words our heart bleeds, but to the outsider all they hear may be silence.

Walkin like a one man army
Fightin with the shadows in your head
Living out the same old moment
Knowing you’d be better off instead
If you could only
Say what you need to say

Do you ever feel as if you are haunted by the words that never escaped from your lips...whether it be an I love you, an I'm sorry, or even just the truth? Sometimes I find myself fighting an inner battle wondering if I would have been better off just saying what I really wanted to say.

Don't get me wrong, it is always better to think before you speak. However, I think at the end of the day, it is better to say what you need to say than to keeping those feelings bottled up inside.


In conclussion, live everyday with passion and in freedom.