blue is for boy

i wanted to write with my last post, but time got the best of me and this is my first chance i have had to sit down.

this weekend i had two wedding. i don't think they could have been more opposite! yesterday's wedding was wonderful! I have come to realize that there are many things in life that are stressful and a lot of work, but in the end, it was worth it all. which brings me to my next topic...

no longer is our baby an "it" or referred to as "the baby"...it's our little boy, brayden harter knetzer.

this past wednesday was a very monumental day. i truly believe that i was more nervous that day then i was on my own wedding day...a day in which i didn't have a care in the world! Jared and I woke up that morning (i in the bed and him on the couch) and headed to destin. our first stop was to the chiropractor's office to fix my back problem. i have always had back pain, but since being pregnant, brayden has revealed a new side of pain i never knew before! after a much needed adjustment, we had some time to kill so we wasted time and went into stores to look at baby stuff we knew we couldn't buy for another 3 hours.

3 hours came and went and it was time to head to the doctor....our new doctor. as many of you already know and have probably had a good laugh....jared and i were almost..or were convinced that we were having a little girl. growing up, all my life i thought i would be the one to have all girls. boys were a foreign object in which i knew nothing about. the thought of having a boy crossed my mind too many times to count, but i just figured it was a figment of my imagination. on our way into the hospital, i had a real feeling that the nurse was going to tell us that we were having a boy. on our way through the door holding hands, jared turns to me and asks, "if they say we're having a boy, are you going to cry?" Shocked and a bit bothered by the question, i replied, "of course not! I'll be very shocked and surprised, but i'll be very excited!" so on up we went to office 310.

sitting in the waiting room my breathing began to get heavier with anxiety and then they called my name. I climbed onto the table and on they squeezed that warm jelly stuff which feels a little strange. there on the screen was our baby. unlike our first ultrasound, you could see it's little nose, mouth, and ears. as the nurse measured everything, everything was perfect. our baby was healthy and growing! the nurse kept referring to the baby as a "he" and you would think i would've caught on! then she moved the screen and pointed as if i knew what she was pointing at. everything on the screen looks about the same to me. and then she said....

"congratulations, you're having a little boy!"

jared and i both looked at each other and burst out laughing. we couldn't believe it! as i turned to look back at the screen, there he was, my little boy. no longer was it just a baby but it was a little person. a little boy person who now had a name, brayden. as i continued to admire, tears began streaming down my face. tears of joy and yet uncertainty. my mind began to become flooded with a rush of thoughts, "how in the world do you potty train a little boy?", " i don't want to raise a mama's boy!", "does this mean that when i go to change him, he's going to pee all over me??", "i don't want everything to be blue, animals, and sports!" For the first time, i began to panic just a bit because i was about to venture into the unknown...another journey God was about to sent me on...but i couldn't be more excited!! i was falling more in love than before!

leaving the doctor's office on we went to buy little boy things. in the car was another "big" moment. for the first time i felt our little boy moving around. not only did i see him that day, but i felt him too.

everything at that moment became surreal. we were really having a baby...a baby boy!


i think brayden and i are now off to go shopping now for him!